night out with the girls - did some poledancing, stole a piece of pizza from a bouncer, kissed a girl (3, actually) - all in all, pretty succesful night!
and the best of it is - the old ME is well and truly back! no more moping about feeling sorry for myself.... and also, this is the ME before J, the ME before long term relationships, before broken hearts and boredom. this is the ME that people liked, the ME i was in england, the ME that turns the boys heads, me me me! and god, it feels good to be back. iv seen her coming back, over the last weeks, seen bits of her floating about, but now, its for sure - IM BACK!
and wow, life is so much fun all of a sudden. or maybe im still drunk. but suddenly, i feel just so much better about myself. so what if he broke my heart, so what if he turned out to be so very different from the guy i fell in love with - life goes on! and i AM attractive, some of the time anyway, when i get my hair and body under control, and gues DO like me, and really, its time to see whats out there!
its just a shame i wasted the last 3 years on someone who just wasnt worth it...
oh dear, this is rather like the last drunken ramblings i wrote. i should try blogging sober. but then again, i dont usually drink anyway, its just been these last two days... sober post coming up soon!
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